Am I too young to be going through a midlife crisis? Probably so but I still feel like I'm going through one. For some reason I'm not passionate about anything or anyone. Most days are spent going to work and coming home trying to figure out what my next tattoo is going to be. Going through that helped my realize that I wasn't passionate about anything. Not anything significant. I wear my heart on my sleeve but I have no heart. Not for anything tangible at least. I have plenty of heart for things like...losing sleep, peanut butter, and ITunes. But those things won't last. I don't come home to a wife and kids, I hate my job, Nas doesn't make enough music, and all of my sports teams are terrible. Everything that I have heart for has a "but" attached to it. I love my family, but I don't show it anywhere as much as I should. The first vehicle that I thought I loved so much was almost traded in. I love to write, but I have editing my work. I would cook everyday if I didn't have to clean up afterwards. Nothing is cut and dry with me. I'm a classic procrastinator which doesn't the situation because I think too much. I love to point out my own flaws but I never do anything to change them. So in the end I have no one to blame but myself for the way things are. In the end, I could be so many things and I still have plenty of time. That's the same thing I said five years ago.
