
I know that's not me in the picture and I can probably get sued for even using it. But Anthony Hamilton is that dude and that picture goes well with what I'm about to say. Plus I couldn't take a picture of myself like that. Hard to hold the camera without it showing in the picture. What is the point of it all, all being this life that we live. Everyday I go through this same routine, basically spinning my wheels. I want so much more than I have now. My homeboy and I were talking about this same thing the other day. We're the same age and we were both doing less than we should be. He's moving on and I'm left trying to figure out my next move. It's so easy to say what I'm going to do. The execution is so much harder. Now back the the original question. Is the point of all this to make the best out of life before we're called home? I never had any interest in figuring out the meaning of life. It's something that I'll never figure out so why try? My motivation is different nowadays. I want to make my family proud, and not just proud because I'm out on my own. Anybody can do that. I want to accomplish something that came from me solely. I have it in my sights, but I just need that extra push. I'm still trying to figure out this adulthood thing. Something happens everyday that I can learn from. I want so much to be like my father, but I have a long way to go. I'll keep working at it though. I have so much to gain by streamlining my thought process on life. I still have time to figure it all out.
