Purpose

Treading water is easy.  It's easy to just accept things as they are and not even attempt to change them.  It's terrifying doing something different.  I was comfortable in my past life and I had accepted it for what it was.  But then an opportunity was given.  I knew I had to take advantage of the situation.  The funny thing is I was never worried about it.  I have undergone quite a few drastic changes in the past few years.  I mean life altering changes.  Getting married, joining a fraternity, and changing career fields are what I would consider drastic changes.  Some people find their purpose early.  It has taken me a while, but I am finding my footing.  I always felt like I was meant to do more than I was doing.  There are people who can take something away from my story.  Fear can be your best friend...and your worst enemy.  It is the very reason why I stayed stagnant for so long.  But then I had to think about Amiyah.  She needs me.  She is my purpose.  So often I was missing out on being a father because I had to work.  Not anymore.  I rarely miss out on her life now.  It's the small things that I will remember, like pulling one of her front teeth out.  The next time I see her, I expect her to be riding her bike with no training wheels.  She's shown me how fearless she can be, and then she reminds me that she is only 6.  I have to show her that fear cannot stop her from finding her purpose.  No matter how long it takes, she has to find it.  Whatever she decides to do, there will be many people there to support her.  My purpose is to make her happy, even if it means facing my fears.