Ticking Time Bomb

Sometimes I wonder if there is something wrong with me, emotionally. When it comes to my feelings, it seems like I get over things too fast. It's like a gift and a curse. In the end, not too much bothers me but I don't forget things that happen. So basically everything gets dealt with internally. Sometimes I feel like I could just explode at any moment. I remember when my grandmother died, I didn't cry, not even at the funeral. I felt like I supposed to but I couldn't. There was a point where I was questioning my own self as to whether I brushed that off too easily like I didn't really care that she was gone. Since then I have gone to two more funerals and had the same feelings. But it's not just sadness that I keep bottled up. When I was younger I had a quick temper. Now it's hard to even see me upset. Don't get it twisted; I get upset just like the next person, but I get over it very quickly. I don't let too much bother me. Maybe that's a good thing because you won't see me carrying a grudge, but it's just something that I think about from time to time. It makes me a very easygoing person, but it also makes me a person who has a high tolerance for things that I shouldn't. I stand up for myself but it's not immediate like it should be. I have ways to get out my frustrations though like lifting weights, writing, laughter, etc. So I'll be alright. But sometimes I wonder if something will happen to make me blow up completely. Let's hope not.